
I feel good most of the time, but then when this starts happening again it seriously affects my quality of life. I am trying really hard to maintain my positivity, but when no one has any answers about why I have this problem it's just discouraging. -And no, it's not allergies. It's recurrent viral infection. I don't really get bacterial infections often either, which is strange. My immune system just seems to have one major flaw. In fact, it's the only health problem that I have. It just happens to be a big one. I am a proponent of the power of belief in a lot of areas of life, and I have a good outcome so far with that generally, but not with this. Maybe it's because my attitude becomes instantly crappy as soon as I feel ANOTHER cold coming on.
On a lighter note, I was thinking really hard this week about a jar of lilacs for my table, and had even brought out a pretty table cloth to use as well. I hadn't had the opportunity to go beg my neighbors for any, but then my mother showed up this morning with a big bunch to make me feel better. It worked very well. My mother has an uncanny ability to read my mind -happens all the time. I seem to send her messages -particularly about objects -and she will then proceed to produce the exact thing that was on my mind. It's weird.