I continue to expand in all directions. I just don't remember being this hungry with Ray -actually, I don't remember being this hungry before ever. Whatever, I've gotta eat, so I'm ingnoring the TWENTY pounds I've gained already.
I have made some pretty important decisions regarding the birth, and I feel really good about them. Although they are based on the limitations of my geographical area, they don't feel very much like compromises. I've been spending what little free time I have doing some much needed personal and spiritual work. I didn't do any of this last time, and I feel like I paid for it. So now I'm really examining what happened with Ray's birth, and what about me I can change to have things be completely different this time. It's not that I have terrible associations with giving birth to her, it's just that the whole hospital scene made me so uncomfortable, and I think it slowed things up a lot. This feels good. I'm finally allowing myself to explore the primal and maternal side of my life without apology. I'm doing what I need to do for myself and the baby, and no one can stop me. How liberating.
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hey mama! you look great, you are just so statuesque and glowing. Wow! I was thinking today, i would love to come up there and be your labor doula. is that crazy? well, i guess maybe not entirely feasible, but gosh, a girl can dream ;-)
I have a wonderful doula already, but my baby is due in the first week of Sept., and if you were at all available at that time I would love to have you visit for a few days. Maybe you'll end up being in the right place at the right time...
If not then, you are more than welcome to come up over the summer.
You look great, simply glowing! I am glad that you feel more in charge now with this one then with Ray. I felt the same way with Caeleb's birth, just so different.
Well, let's hope so -we'll see...
oh, i love following blog pregnancies! i would have loved a doula, although she probably wouldn't have made it to hospital in time!
Oh my gosh -me too! I find blog pregnancies to be one of the most exciting things.
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